There's a pain inside of me that if i were to access, would consume me and drive me insane. Like someone dear once said, "It is that part of my job, that gives me nightmares at night..."

After much observation, there are some guys who have it, and some who don't.

Honey. I could watch you all day. And there's nothing that goes better with beer and cigerattes than you do.

Its me.
Its 2am.
Sitting facing the screen,

bored.
I'm nearly going insane.
My respect for enlightened beings just increased.
I'd bet they had to twiddle thumbs to stop from strangling themselves.

In that moment we connected, I met a girl.
She had been around me for some time, I just never took notice of her. Although I often sensed her presence, she finally showed herself to me this time - probably because I was curious enough to ask her out, despite the unsettledness from the impact that would have on me.
I don't quite know what to think of her yet, or what to do with her. She shared with me a side of her before she left like a whisper in the dark. It was not easy for her to share, that I can gather. It's not often she shows herself to humans, she admitted, until it got to a point she had to reach out. And I was there.
She was at a loss, not knowing what to do with what she knew. I do suppose at some levels, you'll know things others don't.
It all made sense, and I guess some things don't change very much even in different universes. She loves her kind. Too much, she claims, and it eats her up on the insides when she wants very bad to show them love, but can't.It had been such for the last few cases she came across. She would fight her whole being to hold back, for those whom she wanted to envelope would never understand, and this gnawed at her heart everynight as she cried herself to sleep, suffering watching them suffer.
I soaked it all in and when she was done, I stretched myself out, wanting to strike a match to light my fire, but all I could master was a tear as I mouthed the words, "me too."

I worry for myself, when it's 4 fucking AM in the morning and I can't sleep because I'm bored.
22 and bored.
The immensity of it baffles me, like a shroud of darkness that simply never ends, the edges merging into the infinity of space, beyond beyond. It fills me like an emptiness that was always there, and yet scares me, inviting thoughts of pursuing that amorphic dream which could fill it.
I turn to my right to greet the daily demands of work, and although the smell of waffles and fulfillment is present, the excitement isn't new.
I glance to my left to flirt with the passing scent of a male, and while a tremour of thrill runs through my body, I look beyond and see within sight a dead end not too far.
I spend my nights imersed in a world that proposes new adventures, physically if I'm lucky, mentally if I'm not.
I wander about, wondering what drives this need and crave for excitment and thrill and new adventures and experiences and conclude that I don't really want to find out, which brought me to this time and space sitted at my computer with a towel over my head with thoughts of a revolution spinning on full in my head making me wet in my panties with glee. But until we get there, I'm a hopeless romantic high on a pill we'll name "I just can't get no satisfaction."

Everyday, history is made. (I apologize for the cliche use of this oxymoron)
Here are some highlights that happened on 30th September you ought to know about:

1399 - Henry IV is proclaimed King of England.
1888 - Jack the Ripper kills his third and fourth victims, Elizabeth Stride and Catherine Eddowes.
1960 - The Flinstones made their debut on primetime.
1990 - The Dalai Lama unveils the Canadian Tribute to Human Rights in Canada's capital city of Ottawa.
2004 - The first images of a live giant squid in its natural habitat are taken 600 miles south of Tokyo.

Now, ask me how those are of any importance to you, or how they make your life better, and I'd say I really wouldn't know because I just ripped them off the web.

HOWEVER, here's something you DO need to take note of. Mark it down on your calender, your schedule, your secretary, your palm, even that left over tissue from lunch with mee rebus stains on it. THIS DAY IN HISTORY...

Two once run-of-the-mill government slaves suddenly emerge amongst the thousands of mediocre kids dying to make it big in their lifetime to capture the attention of nations far and wide. With the joining of Legend's Beer Drinking Competition, Lin Tan and 'Ain Aid Omar marked the beginning of history in the making for the brewery and entertainment industry. This, ladies and gentlemen, is the epitome of 'one small step for a woman, one giant leap for womenkind'. With their multi-million dollar making idea, the world is inches closer to seeing the opening of the much awaited Beerfriend.

(Beerfriend is a highly-anticipated boutique pub joint that is scheduled to open sometime in the next 5 years. 'When?' isn't what you ought to be concerned about - what you ought to be fretting about is how you are going to win 'Ladies' Beer Guzzling Competition Night's, or wet t-shirt contests, or BBQ chicken wing challenges. And just because you're a fan of this very exciting blogpage, you have been warned, and given a 5 year headstart.)

How is joining a beer drinking competition history in the making? Simply because, Beerfriend is going to take the world by storm. And in order to hold drinking competitions, the very enterprising CEO duo have to be able to be champions in themselves. On the 30th Sept 2006, the world rejoyced at the act of courage it took for these girls to match themselves up against steep competition and teeth-bearing rivals. Faced with the very daunting task of flushing an entire pint of beer down their gullets, they did not show any signs of reservation....or mercy. Not to the neighbouring lady with her distinguished potbelly, or to the unfazed gazes from the opposing male species, ready to pounce on their god-given elixer. With such promising futures in sight, these girls were unstoppable........ until the command to start drinking.

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Needless to say, the world never saw such beautiful recoveries from the sad loss of a beer drinking championship title. With Ain robbing the audience's heart with cute guggling faces, and Lin giving a little extra downing the beer down her chest, they stole the show and the limelight and had guys hooting for more. And more they did give, with steamy podium performances that had us all wonder when these wildchild stars are going to start hitting and heating up bartops with Def Lapord's 'Pour Some Sugar on Me' rocking eager spectators.

Like they say, some are born to watch, while others are born to live.
I'd bet my bottom dollar and my last instant coffee mix on these girls - watch them in the next 7 years and I'll see you at the exclusive launch of Beerfriend.
Over and out.